By Billie Jordan

There is power in this room.

I am in a watchful state. Initially, when I began to see myself in everything it was mystically exciting. That excitement grew into careful self-examination. Some things I changed immediately. Other habits are stronger and need more time for varying reasons.

I’m finding that for me the important thing is not to judge those undesirable things in myself or in others. For a time, until I can self master these things, when I am focused, I work around them as if they are not there. I take note of them, but I try not to interact with those manifestations of energy in any way – so as not to perpetuate their story lines. I try to give them no energy. I try not to give any focus on them in the negative. Instead I try to envision how I want to see my life. In these visions the undesirable behaviors are not there. I bend the energetic metal spoon to my new will with my conscious intention.

It is important to feel in every moment the way I want to feel tomorrow. This is the way to make that happen. I am creating with my every thought, feeling and action. When the reflections and patterns have a strong hold and seem to lull me hypnotically – draw me in and it is tough not to emote negatively – like my future depends on it, I work hard to remember the things that I know. I have work to do – to change this story line. I have the power to do it. I am working on these things with my intentions… But now, right now,  it is important to feel good. I can divert my attention to a thought, a vision or activity that feels good. So-as-to  create story lines with this energy. When I can do this I realize its not so much work after all. Its moving in the right direction, the direction of what I want to see, oblivious to anything else. The story lines change automatically when I can do this. But I must take care not to think about what I don’t want. This is my warning. When I think about what I don’t want and I feel the energy of not wanting it. I create more of the same. There is power in what I think and feel. I must stay away from those thoughts.

In summary:

My life is a magical mirror I am the power that changes what I see. While I am gathering the strength to change my reflection I can surrender judgement of what I see. I can relax my critical eye. I can choose to focus on love and focus on why I love and focus on feeling good to the exclusion of anything else. The changes will definitely come. If I only feel good everyday the changes will surely come. My moment to moment energy, the visions and the work for sure bring changes.